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Lady Gwendolynn O'Danaan
Lady Gwendolynn O'Danaan

Registration date : 2008-03-31
Location : Mary Esther, FL
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PostSubject: Sucking My Life Away   Sucking My Life Away EmptyThu Jul 01, 2010 4:48 pm

In this world there are those who go out of their way to cause harm to others and then there are those who live within the darkness of the veil that attach themselves when our guard is down and reek havoc on our lives causing us misery, grief, and putting our lives into such utter chaos that it feels like we can never pull ourselves up out of the the hole we have dug ourselves because of them. These things feed off the negatives in our lives. Their only happy when we are miserable and they feed off of it. I'm not speaking of uncontrolled Psychic Vampire attacks or even Psychic Vampires who may know what they are doing but still seek to use their abilities for ill. No; I speak of Shadows. I speak of entities that have no true physical form but do just as I described.

For the longest time, most likely since I was a child I have had these 2 entities attached to me. They have been the main cause of distrust between myself and others as well as misery, depression, and the list of negatives goes on. I didn't realize these things were on me until a close friend I met here in Florida told me about them and gave me a means to rid myself of these things. These Shadows, as I call them, posed as guides trying to lure me into poor decisions, to people, situations, false information, etc. Since I've cleansed myself my senses are still fuzzy but these beings are still hanging around at just the fringes of my senses. Trying to stay out of mind and out of sight so as not to bring awareness to their presence.

The thing that bothers me the most is that I was unable to see these things before anyone else to rid myself of them. The other thing that upsets me? People have been judging me based on the fact they could sense these Shadows' presence but not bother to ask if I knew about them or if I was aware of them. Instead they judged me and decided I knew about them and treated me like an outcast...even in the communities that I should be well accepted by. I have never tried to be a poser or something that I am not. Admittedly I had tried that, when I was much younger and smaller and didn't know better about trying to be my own individual. These days I find myself always at odds with others because of my radical, "Thinking outside the box - why can't we do things this way, who's to say they couldn't or can't?" sort of follow-the-beat-of-my-own-drum attitude. I blaze my own trail in this life all because I do not desire to conform or to follow those who would otherwise welcome negativity into their traditions with their elitest attitudes and "I'm right and you're wrong" attitudes. Everyone is entitled to their own truth and I realize and accept that, hence why I blaze my own trail. If I find others to share the joy, happiness, love, and sincerity of my soul with than I am more than happy to welcome and open my circle to allow more into the party that continues on within my being.

Other than that I do not share too much of these things with those who are VERY dead set stuck in their ways. I've been bagging my head against that wall long enough and I tire of such things. While I understand a wee bit of challenge/opposition is needed to strengthen ones beliefs, I do not believe in BEATING another persons beliefs down just because you believe they are wrong. Instead of showing compassion and a want for understanding we show these emotions instead. It is these sorts of ideals and attitudes that indeed attract beings of the afore mentioned.

So in telling you all this story I hope that you will take better care in "Judging a Book by its cover" and also take care in what you say, think, do as well as truly and deeply listen to how you feel inside in order to guard against such entities and to aid in manifesting the ideal situations you want so that they can manifest quickly for if you haven't realized it yet, the bad has a tendancy of manifesting with the utmost haste when it comes to the things you think you hate, dread, doubt, etc over.

"For many are called, but few are chosen" - Matthew 22:14 ver. New American Standard.
"Though my soul is born from darkness, it shall rise in perfect light, I have loved the stars too fondly, to be fearful of the night". Unknown
"On those nights that I gazed upon the full moon in longing it was always you that my heart was calling." - me
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